Ok, so like I've said before on my profile on my site, I am a Medium. I also have slight, periodic psychic abilities. If anyone, ANYONE AT ALL, has any information on how to contact another , more experienced Medium, or if anyone is a Medium more experienced than myself (I just found all of this out not too long ago...about a few months ago) please message me or comment or something!!! PLEASE!!! I desperately need some help. 

For the past week or about a week and a half I have been going to bed with nothing wrong and then when I wake up I have blood blister-like bruises on one of my knees (if it's not one it's the other and never at the same time. The marks are always in the same spot no matter which knee they are on, but the size and colour varies). I have also been waking up with small, thin but DEEP cuts on my hands and fingers (description like the bruises on my knees) and they never bleed or seem to have shown signs of bleeding except for the fact that they are already scabbed over. If anyone has any advice or any info on the contents of the previous paragraph, please, PLEASE, PLEASE let me know some how. You can also YIM MSN Messenger or email me at the email addresses listed on my profile/site page.

I know for a fact that my house and the area around it is haunted and overwhelmed with activity and there are two black cats living outside in my cauldosac(sp), they are both owned by a little boy across the street and they only seem to go inside at night, either that or they are hiding and sleeping somewhere. One is all black with Irish-grass-green eyes and the other is all black and the same eyes except he has a single silver-coloured, perfectly circular ring about an inch from the tip of his tail. I also know that I have not sensed any negative spiritual energy or poltergeist activity here so if it is a spirit, I don't know if they are mischievious or negative and evil or what, but they seem to hide themselves quite well during the day and are only active at night after I have gone to bed.  I have already looked up Sylvia Browne, who happens to be from my hometown, KC, MO (I didn't know that till about five-ten minutes ago).

Anyway, I am going to bed now. If anyone has ANY info on anything mentioned above, please take the necessary actions. I don't mean to sound so formal, but yeah...anyway... good night all and blessed be.

Next Tuesday, September 18, the new Volkerball DVD for Rammstein hits American stores. It'll be my first Rammstein or Volkerball DVD which makes me even more excited!! Hopefully I will be able to get the special edition. It'll be hard saving for it though because money always burns a hole in my pocket but I really want this because the lead guitarist, Richard Kruspe, is so good-looking and I can't seem to find a good pic of him anywhere except for when I pause the music vids and interview vids on youtube.com and take a pic with my phone. Anyway, yeah.

Also, another update: I got a Mp3 player a few days ago and all of the songs are Rammstein or Richard's band: Emigrate, except for one KISS song, one Marilyn Manson song, and one Korn song but it's a Rammstein remix so I guess that only partially counts...anyway, it's so much better because now I don't have to listen to what the bus driver that drives the school bus puts on for everyone. I don't have anything against Hip-Hop and Rap, as a matter of fact I like some of it, but all this new stuff they're coming out with annoys me (no offense to anyone, some of it actually is good) but anyway, yeah, now that that's said... -'Kai

P.S. this is a pic of Richard playing his guitar. Not sure what city they're playing in here but it's from a Rammstein Volkerball dvd. Found the pic on his biography on Wikipedia.com. 

Ok...so I want t upload a music vid or two from youtube.com...can I do that? and for anyone wondering, I STILL haven't found my cards but dad says he will buy me more. He thinks that when my bro's were helping him pack up the old house when I was out of town and they were here that one of them thought they were cool and took them but my bro doesn't believe in that stuff and I think it was his way of inconspicuously saying that his gf's daughter took them before they moved into a different house. I wouldn't doubt that because she was always going in my room when I was gone and/or at a friend's house and going trough my stuff and taking stuff and all that so yeah..but what can you do...:(

Something I can't seem to let go or get over or stop thinking about: A few weeks (about a month or less) ago I was talking to my friend on YIM and I wanted to show her a pic of my other friend that I hadn't seen or heard from in a while. So I looked him up online and kept finding "RIP Gypsy Zanval 3-29-06". I didn't believe it and thought that it had to be another Gypsy Zanval living in New Orleans. I clicked on the first website that came up on google.com and it just said we miss you we love you rip all that stuff. I clicked on the next one and it said generally the same thing. But the third one I clicked on said it and had a pic of him at the top above the text. I broke down. No one ever told me. Of course, he had my number memorized and never even put it in his phone and no one else knew about me because he was odd like that and now I can't believe he's gone. He was a werewolf and I can't even think about the moon (full or otherwise) or even about him being gone without absolutely breaking down. That night I cried for five hours straight since I found out until I fell asleep. I know that if he hasn't moved on then I can speak to him being a Medium and all, but it's not the same. THe thing that really got me crying and so p-ed off was the fact that I had to find out a little under a year and a half later via the flippin' INTERNET!!! Anyway, I can't move on an it's really bugging me. I want to except the fact and be able to remember the way he used to tease me, the way that we were close that he was like a big brother to me. I want to remember all the good times we had together but it seems that I can't because I can't move on. I'm going to try and find a pic of him where you can actually see what he looks like and put it on my page here. Maybe that will help. I've thought of doing a meditation/spell to get over it but not only do I, probably, not have what I'd need for it, but I don't know how. I do know that I want to do it at midnight during a full moon so that it might work a bit better considering his gift or curse or disease or impediment or whatever you want to call it. Anyway, if anyone has any experience with this, please let me know.  THanx. -'Kai